This past week I've been having 2nd thoughts about continue with Army OCS program. Wondering is this what I want? What do you want out of your life and were do you want to go. When I got into the OCS program a few months ago, seems like a good idea, I was having a hard time finding a job, I needed some sort of direction. It was hard coming out of college and not able to find a job, till a few months later then losing it, then getting another and quitting it based on other advice.

Now my current job values me, but I didn't go to college to make t-shirts and print signs for sales. So I have been applying online to other jobs related to my field of study. I have been getting calls back and having interviews set up. Its a wonderful feeling to be wanted for a job. Then I started to think about my job with the military and my OCS program. When I original looked into going back into the military I was looking at the multimedia / illustrator position posted online. I was considering would it be possible I can try to apply for that position since I went to school to study that field.

Trying to make that happen I contacted my OCS recruiter, I have a feeling he is not going to help me. His job is to get personal into officer positions in bases to get his quota as a recruiter. So I came to understanding if this is something I want I am going to have to go out and find it. I found two positions online posted regarding this position. They are located in FL and in CA national guard bases. To make sure if this is possible I contacted my old recruiter who originally turned me to the officer route and asked if this is possible. I contacted the position online to see if it is possible.

I know there are great pay benefits to being an officer, high pay, bonus money and leadership experience. Is that why I want to be come an officer for money?!?! I like money, as much as the next person, I enjoy working hard for it. But do I want to do a job I know I can do, excel in and enjoy. Or do I take a job that that has a lot of responsibility , nice pay benefits but in a position of high hazards and combat.

I gotta make sure the option is possible before I can start making these big changes.